Monday, June 7, 2010

The Bitch is Back

My back aches, my groin muscles complain with every step, my glutes are sore.

I'M SO HAPPY!!!! :)

My return to the ice after 6 weeks of no hockey was a success. I played well, my team played well, and we stuffed the blue team in regulation 4-2. (We won't talk about that extra 4th period where I was the only goalie and had to play in the enemy net for the final 10 minutes. I understand and didn't mind, but yuck. What a mindfuck.)

I'll just bullet point this sucker:

  • Highlight was stoning the best player on the blue team. Maybe he was taking it easy on me by not shooting high, but I stopped him on a big breakaway, and got a toe on several more of his shots. All good ones, but I was motivated. I wanted to shut him down. Beauty. That felt awesome.
  • Took me a good 15 minutes to not feel like I was tripping over my feet. I was definitely a little wobbly, like those small muscles that deal with balance were out of practice. 
  • I was surprised, however, by how strong my legs still felt. No biggie getting up from the fly, which is how I hurt myself initially. Made some big lateral pushes from the posts for a couple of saves. Real proud of those for reading the pass correctly. 
  • I would say my rebound control was lousy but, frankly, it always is, so nothing new there.
  • TONS of new people at novice, though some are quite good and probably should be playing C, unless they just like the easy pace of novice. It's great that this group is growing. I like my teammates. They were fantastic last night. And Mitch was there! Everything's better when Mitch is there. I think because he was always so nice to me during some rough early months when I was going to drop-ins and he was the only one I knew and he didn't pretend to not know me, even though I sucked so bad. I'll always love him for that.
  • You need that as a new goalie. You need people to say, "Man, that sucked" and you need people to say, "Good save!" even if you only make one save all game. You need SOME air in your tires all the time or else, you have no motivation to keep going. 
  • My knee hurt the entire time out there. Controlling that blade dug into the ice is exactly what my knee doesn't like right now. Felt like I was going to take my gear off and it was going to be swollen up like a grapefruit. But it wasn't. And it doesn't feel any worse today than it has the last 6 weeks, so I'm calling it a success. 
  • The brace was absolutely no problem didn't even notice it. Don't know if it helped, either, but if I can't feel it, it obviously isn't hurting.
Here's the thing: I started playing goal because I had to. Like, if I hadn't tried to play, I would have looked back on my life when I'm 90 and thought, "Dammit. Why didn't I do that?" And really, when you feel that way about something, you KNOW you have to do it. You have no choice. You have to honor that instinct.

So to not play for 6 weeks, which I realize is not THAT long if you think about how long some guys go without playing, even as pros (*hugs Brusty*), was like a part of me was missing. Sure, I missed it less as time went on, but then as soon as work stress started to lift, there it came back again. I had to have it.

I've been avoiding this comparison because I didn't want to seem like I'm just trying to be shocking (which I'm not inherently averse to, but I'm quite serious about this), but I want to play goal like I want a good lay. You know the feeling I mean? Like you just need to get fucked until you're limp. That's exactly the inner tension I feel when I can't play for a long time. It's nasty. It's fabulous. And nothing else can scratch that itch. I had this one toe save, literally off the plastic cowling over the toe of my skate, that was worthy of a cigarette after. Heh. Yeah. Hockey is amazing.


maalivahti  June 7, 2010 at 8:43 PM  

Welcome back to the crease, Bitch. Way to stuff the blue team guy. And you know I'm completely with you on the comparison at the end there. ;)

Anonymous  June 7, 2010 at 9:20 PM  

i am in awe of how you put it there at the end of your blog. i find it funny that skaters can chat and just be all energized after a game, and i sit there and just am a limp noodle. hand me a beer, give me a smoke, and just leave me be...

Marienne  June 7, 2010 at 11:43 PM  


From the tone of your comment, it sounds like you're a goalie, but I don't want to presume, so I'm shooting for more general. We'll see if it works ;)

I wonder if some of the difference is simply due to the nature of the beast. Skaters pulls shifts, whereas goalies pull periods. It's a lot like the difference between a sprinter and a marathon runner, if not an exacerbated version of that, b/c skaters train not only for those bursts of speed and energy, but also to recover in the gaps between shifts. I used to have the same thing happen in Water Polo, as well, just because you crawl onto the bench dying and then a minute or two later you're back in the water pretending that you've just started the game.

As a result, the body doesn't realize that the game is over yet, so there's that energy still bubbling under the surface keeping you going. [/$0.02]

Ms.C, congrats on getting back out there. I'm still relatively new on skates, and I can't go more than a week without ice time or I start getting that itchy feeling. Hopefully the knee will settle itself out as it realizes that no, you're not actually subjecting it to torture for the sake of torture, it really *is* designed to do what you're asking of it.

artandhockey  June 8, 2010 at 8:47 AM  


Ms. Conduct  June 8, 2010 at 8:52 AM  

I think you're on to something there with the energy usage. I'm always the last one out of the locker room. I flop into my chair, all my gear on, and just drink the rest of my gatorade (could probably chug another half a bottle). Then it's off with the sweater, c/a, neck guard. And then I sit some more and try to cool off.

I'll usually undo the straps I can reach easily on my leg pads but I really have to convince myself to start wallowing around to get the skate strap and toe ties off. It's rough. I dunno what I'd do if I were in a hurry after a game. LOL

Anonymous  June 8, 2010 at 12:03 PM  

i also think the energy thing is true, to some part. Also the damn skaters are like 20 where i am staring 40 in the face. LOL....
And yes i am becoming the same way with the itch. I get pissed off on the weekends since there is no open hockey and then they wanna wait until WED to have it instead of monday, where i can go burn off all kinds of that monday work stress...oh well...
oh, and sorry, its moose..LOL

Nick  June 10, 2010 at 9:39 PM  

YAY, MS. C!!!

You can always tell a true fan of the game + the sincere love of it by taking up the position and wanting it more than anything else. :D

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